I woke up this morning, habitually grabbed for my phone and scanned through YouTube as I usually do. I watch all the new videos on my feed but this morning was a little different. I had a self-reflective moment at 6:45AM.
Body image. I've talked about this topic many, many, many times on this blog as it's become my release, my therapy, my diary of being honest with myself and my body. But how many times could I really talk about having a positive body image? Not enough.
Instead of writing paragraph after paragraph of how I think you should be positive, I decided to just answer the questions that SoulPancake x Darling Mag asked during this roundtable. I encourage you to do the same.
Is my body size where I want it to be...
My body is a constantly changing force - sometimes thin, most times curvy. Occasionally bloated but mostly water-deprived. My body is my body. I don't believe I'll reach a size that would matter, make things different for me or encourage me to be a different person. So, my size is perfectly fine. I'm on my way to being healthy, I take time for myself and I feel confident, most days.
The first time I felt not good enough was...
Oh this is a tough one. More of a personal question as it has nothing to do with my body but entirely of my self worth. My dad had a high standard for me but I never did quite reach that. So without going into detail, the first time I felt not good enough was 6th grade until the time I was 24 years old.
I feel the most beautiful...
when I have a conversation with someone and they're listening, receptive, compassionate and forthcoming. I can name all of those conversations on both hands, most of these conversations born of out of a new friendship. I feel beautiful because I've become someone to trust, someone to rely on, someone to be a friend to and friendship makes me feel beautiful.
Comparison is the thief of joy.
Read this quote over and over the next time you're comparing yourself to everyone else around you. Learn to be joyful.
A movement I find most suiting for my life and something I can across happenstance at work is I AM THAT GIRL. If you haven't heard of this organization, you really should dive in. They are the kind of movement that I stand strongly with because every human on this earth should have the feeling of worth.
Lastly, I want to leave you with this. During this video, SoulPancake interviewed this awesome woman who shares a poem of beauty that I wanted to reiterate here. Her name is Natalie and she is beautiful.